Here for a moment, remembered forever - Bonnie Brogan

I long to hold you once more,  Slowly rock you back and fro,  Tell everyone the hurt I feel, deep inside my core. I wanted to see your eyes, the colour of you hair, The decision we had to make, I promise, doesn’t mean we didn’t care.  Your skin was so soft, your nose so cute,  At times I wish I could put my mind on mute.  I wonder continuously how you would have laughed, Would you have preferred, English, Art or Math?  What if things could have worked out,  Even though we were told the chances were nout.  How do I get out of the quick sand that’s pulling me under,  Every day I can hear the thunder. I smell your blanket to help me feel close,  But never in my life have I missed someone the most. You will forever be in my thoughts and i will speak your name every day, I will love you unconditionally, come what may.  By Monica Jane Quinn

Bonnie Brogan - 17/01/21 I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve tried to write this down. It’s always felt like anything I have written is the wrong thing - it may offend someone, people will think it’s for attention or it’s just going to be too difficult for me to open up completely and be honest about it all. Baby loss is something that is scarcely spoken about. Being someone who has suffered with poor mental health in the past, I feel that not discussing such a taboo subject would only be detrimental to my already ‘not so normal’ brain. Also, I feel it’s something that should be spoken openly about regardless if you have experienced it yourself, know someone who has or even know very little about the subject. Michael and I recently lost our first baby. BONNIE BROGAN. When we found out we were pregnant I believe we felt like many other parents do, thrilled, fearful, overjoyed and also the anticipation of the unknown. Over the next couple of months I felt physically fine, excluding th