Where do we go after we die? Where are you now? Can you hear me? Should I talk to you more often? Do you know how much I want to hold you and touch you again? Do you know how much I love you? Why do I still feel like this? Did I go back to work too early? Should I have went back earlier? Do people think I’m being too open? Should I shut up about it now? In fact, should I shout about it more? Why do I still feel like this? How many people I know actually disagree with TFMR? Should we have carried on the pregnancy regardless? If we had, would you still be in my tummy? Would I have posted my first bump pic by now? Would I have felt you kick? Why do I still feel like this? Would it have been more difficult if we lost you naturally? Would it have been easier? Is the pain the same for every mother who has had to say goodbye to their child? Am I overreacting? Would I have gotten to full term? If i did, would you have had as many complications as the docs made out? Would you have su